Diagnosed at 37, 2 surgeries later and considering hysterectomy at 42

by Carrie

I used to have dainty little periods. 5 days, no cramps or mood swings, and I used the tampons with one drop highlighted on the box, even at night. I was strangely smug about the ease of my monthlies as if it was a mark of my good character and no muss no fuss brand of femininity.

I grew up in a periodless household- my mom, as both my grandmothers and an aunt, had a hysterectomy early due to female problems. I come from a legacy of endometriosis on both sides of the family tree, as well as ovarian cysts bigger than grapefruits that weighed more than newborns.

After the women in my family had 2 children, they closed up shop permanently and were seemingly glad to do it. There were no feminine hygiene products in my house and no discussion of what to expect. In fact, I was made to feel embarassed of my period. I remember once receiving a free sample of Always in the mail and attempting to bring it into the house undetected, and my mother startling me at the front door. I threw the pads into the bushes, which she saw, and I was doubly shamed to have to retrieve them in front of her.

I also recall a fight with her in my teen years in which she yelled “If you are so grown up why don’t you buy your own kotex.” Shame permeated the issue- once the dog got into my bathroom waste basket and chewed up all my used pads and my stepfather took me aside to tell me I had to clean it up as my brother shouldn’t have to see that kind of thing.

Throughout my teens and twenties periods were a nonissue- I was relieved and grateful to for it to arrive on more than one occasion. In my early thirties I started having more cramps, and a dull ache in my right leg during and after my period. I got married at age 37, and around that time a huge change occurred. I began bleeding between periods- and cramps were debilitating. I was diagnosed with endometriosis then, but I suspected that as I knew my family history.

I was in China at the time and I was booked in for a laproscopic surgery to remove cysts. What was supposed to be an hour surgery became 5 hours and my new husband had to sign papers approving a 5 inch incision across my abdomen as the drs found endometrial tissue and scarring had made a mess of my insides. They had to move my organs around to scrape scar tissue off of my bowel, ovaries, and uterus.

He never really recovered from my surgery- I think he distrusted me for getting sick so soon after we were married. It was not what he signed up for.

After a month long recovery which included a bad reaction to the surgical glue and multiple injections to the incision, things improved for a while. About 18 months, to be exact. Then the pain and bleeding started again and I went back to the Taiwanese Dr with the terrible bedside manner and was told that cysts had grown on my left ovary and it was unlikely that I would be able to keep it.

I rode my bike home in shock. Would I grow a beard and become mannish? Would I have enough hormones? Could I have a child?

On the day of the surgery I asked the Dr to do everything he could to save the ovary. I walked into the operating room and lay down on the table (in China you walk to your surgery- a kind of surgical “Dead Man Walking”) and I was asked to roll over on my side. We had not discussed the method of anaesthesia and I balked at the prospect of an epidural. The Dr won that battle of wills and the next thing I remember was him waking me from surgery to show me my diseased and cyst covered ovary in a glass jar. He wasn’t able to save it.

I recovered from that surgery but the endometriosis continued to worsen. I endured cramps and terrible periods for another year while I was married as we were trying to conceive. After that relationship imploded and I left the rubble and pollution of China behind I decided to get back on the pill to regulate my periods.

The first couple months on the pill were fine. Then in June of this year I started bleeding again. It’s now late November and with the exception of about 10 days I have bled consistently for 5 months. (There was a 5 day international booty call in October where I was able to hold back the flow with a combination of creative medication and the power of my mind).

I have been under a Dr’s care here in Poland, a lovely young OG/GYN who I can actually text if I have a problem. We have tried 3 different kinds of birth control pills which have in turn caused paranoia, depression, and lethargy. I am flooding- dropping clots as big as a fist, having to get up 3 times a night to change my monster mega pad, actually hearing the blood flow out of me in my yoga class.

And, as the endometrial lining is wrapped around my bowel, I have pain deep inside of me and spend a night a month cramping on the toilet. It’s gross, painful, and nobody wants to hear about it.

As I write this I am awaiting results from my D and C last week. Since the 3 rounds of birth control pills and anti bleeding meds have not worked, the Dr has decided that it’s time to check the uterine lining for “bad cells.” I did my research and it is clear they are looking to see if I have uterine cancer. Or it could be the last stage of endometriosis- or a fibroid disrupting my endometrial lining. I am not calmed by this list of possibilities.

I am unmedicated and still bleeding in spite of suggestions that the D and C would stop the relentless flow.

Next stop of my journey is most likely hysterectomy. I am 42 and never had kids, single and without a prospect in sight. Though my DR tries to be optimistic about my fertility and is looking for alternative treatments, I am afraid that ship has sailed. I never thought I would say this, but I am out of reasons against a hysterectomy at this point.

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Jan 03, 2016
Successful hysterectomy
by: Anonymous

I had a very good hysterectomy experience. I had a laparoscopic hysterectomy 3 years ago and kept my ovaries following a diagnosis of severe endometriosis after being ignored and misdiagnosed (IBS and 'that's just ovary pain') for 30 years - to be honest after the first few times of asking about it I gave up as it just made me feel neurotic.

Then I pretty much diagnosed myself through reading information on the Internet and when it all got too much, despite trying to do the right thing with diet and exercise, I demanded a proper investigation and got one.

I have been lucky in that my hysterectomy has caused enormous relief. My surgeon said it would only relieve 70 per cent of the pain but I think it's more like 95 percent and it has changed my life. I still take great care of myself - eating a plant based diet, taking b12 and exercising regularly including yoga, walking or jogging and swimming.

I don't know if these are the things that have made the difference or if I am just one of the lucky ones but I am very thankful that I had this done.

Dec 27, 2015
Hope this helps, no easy absolute answer!
by: Anonymous

I was diagnosed at 38 & fought the suggestion of hysterectomy that was constantly thrown at me by my doctors until I was 42..... Now on one hand, I no longer have the horrible bleedathons which has been enjoyable. I did keep my ovaries so no early menopause or hormones to take.

I had to beg my surgeon to keep my ovaries! On the other hand, I truly mourned the loss of my uterus & found it depressing as I've never had children.. So final.... Sadly, I still struggle with lots of endo pain. I'm frequently on pain meds & often exhausted.

When he sees up my cervix area there were endometriosis lesions/growths sewn up also... Lots of pelvic pain & I feel ripping of scar tissue when I stand up at times, also my ovaries are quite painful at times.

I'm now biding my time until menopause. Many of the women I've talked with & read about had a full hysterectomy STILL have horrible pain so I don't regret keeping my ovaries.... Hope you find what's right for you!

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